Posted by detroitpistons on March 10, 2009, at 17:29:24
In reply to To Scott (SLS), posted by meltingpot on March 9, 2009, at 6:52:11
Denise,
I think I'm like you. I've gone through depressions and anxiety, yet I've always more or less been able to get up and go to work or school and "fake" it.
Actually, this might be the reason why I struggled along for a while before ever seeking treatment. I thought, "How can I be depressed when I'm fully functional?" When I did finally seek treatment, I was at a point where I just wanted to die. I wasn't even close to attempting suicide, but I wanted to be dead.
I'm usually pretty functional, although there was one particular episode when I think my ability to do my job was impaired. I got a bad performance review and I was devastated.
> Hi Scott,
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> I hope I didn't sound like I was being intrusive, asking you how bad you get. I just don't understand why I get so suicidal when obviously my depression/anxiety does not stop me from functioning in the same way that it does other people. I mean I don't get those vegative symptoms where I'm really slowed down.
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> I write to people who are unable to work and yet who don't feel suicidal. Yet I do work and quite often feel suicidal when at work so I find it hard to understand. Maybe, like my mum says, I just want an easy way out.
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> I'm glad you are feeling better anyway. You definately deserve to be feeling better.
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> Denise
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