Posted by SadNina on April 12, 2009, at 19:47:53
Hi Everyone,
My name is Nina. I am desperate and suffering tremendously. I have never before felt like I am fighting for my life like now and because it is about sadness, emotions, and possible opiate intervention I do it in silence. I really, really, really need some advice. I realize any advice I get on this forum is not medical but I have no other choice.
I cannot take my emotional suffering and mind tricks any longer. I am an adult survivor of abuse who has always loved life despite an enduring pain. I had big plans for myself until 4 years ago when my Grandmother who was basically like my Mother died suddenly and I was left to fend for myself. I became a stripper and had a nervous breakdown, since then I have tried therapy. Good therapy, which I payed for out of pocket and yet we didn't get anywhere because I am in so muc hdistress. I have tried Anti-depressants and know they don't work for me. I am not addicted to benzodiazapenes and have a disfunctional family that makes it very hard for me to think this through.
I want to try Subuxone because when I take any opiates for pain linked to my kindney stones, I feel normal. I get happy about things that I can't even remember how I ever got happy about htem before. I am suffering so horribly, I WANT TO DIE. When I take any opiates, i Just feel like oh my god, how could I have thought that way.
I am praying someone will get in touch with me about this subject and give me some advice.
I am crying as I write this because I know our culture lends itself to being able to forget about people, and I feel I am being pulled under and this is not what was meant for me. Please someone if you are concerned reach out to me, thank you.Nina
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thread:890228
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