Posted by Zana on April 16, 2009, at 15:07:02
In reply to Anxiety and Depression cause you to feel this bad?, posted by Cseagraves on April 16, 2009, at 13:08:54
When I was in the worst part of my last depression I felt like I had lost myself completely. I felt like a pale, ghostlike imitation of myself. It's hard to explain. But I had no energy, didn't smile or laugh for well over a year, wept daily, couldn't go anywhere except to therapy. My new pdoc says that she thinks major depression includes a kind of thought disorder and I think she's right. It's not like a psychotic thought disorder but my brain felt numbed, dulled. And all of my thoughts were black, completely negative. They all felt right and rational but there was no room for anything positive or hopeful or even fun.
I think a major depressive episode is different from just being depressed. I've been depressed for years. But this, which started about 18 months ago, was something different. It was like a switch was thrown in my head. And it felt really bad and exhausting and totally consuming.
I hope you are not feeling that badly. But what you are describing sounds completely "normal" for someone suffering from anxiety and depression.
A good physical is not a bad idea. Are you in therapy? Do you have a good pdoc? You really have to fight back as much as you can. Every little bit of effort to take care of yourself will help. And reaching out to the Babble community is a great idea.
Take care.
Zana
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