Posted by floatingbridge on July 7, 2009, at 22:34:07
Hi,
Has anyone had the experience of telling (mentioning) to a good friend (not an acquaintance) that one has depression, or whatever, and them not responding, as if you had said nothing at all, or talking about something else in some kind of disconnect? Lately I've realized that I've had a relapse of my depression. I've mentioned this to a close few people who have acted like they have not even heard me. Now, depression can be consuming and a narcissistic habit--a parasite, as I sometimes think of it. I also have SA or SP depending. So I ride a constant balance between disclosure and sharing. However, I was not expecting to be ignored by the few people I've spoken to. I wasn't ranting, weepy, nor hysterical, just conversational, like hey, I have a cold. These people know I have issues.... What am I saying here? The more cognizant I've become of my illness and attendant behaviors and patterns, the more aware I am that many people avoid the topic. Of course, this is something to take up with my shrink. I just felt compelled to write it here where, it seems, as unperfected as it may be (according to the admin board), at least I can say what I feel and be heard by somebody--even if it is one or two at any given time.
thank you for reading,
fb
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