Posted by BearNCrow on August 7, 2009, at 13:30:49
In reply to Re: Mixed Hypomanic Episode + Medication Changes, posted by linkadge on August 7, 2009, at 7:09:55
thanks everyone for your responses. i've been so depressed i haven't felt like writing anything. this feels like climbing mt everest. i was on a low dose of paxil (40mg), so the jump wasn't outrageous, although i just woke up and am feeling withdrawal symptoms for the first time. it's definitely uncomfortable. i will have to get my lithium level checked on monday i assume. i may go back up to 1800mg which is where i was at a year ago before i began tapering down to 900mg. i see my pdoc in an hour. my wife is going with me for support. my therapist and pdoc are talking hospitilization, but i am just so against it. i'd rather take it an hour at a time of making contracts for safety until i'm at a place where i don't need to be hospitalized. the last and only time i was in the hospital was a horrific experience. i took today off and now it's the weekend. i just want to lay low and see if this improves by monday. my wife can be with me all weekend, but if it doesn't improve and i still feel suicidal, monday will be a new story because i will be left alone to drive to work and be on my own. so it's just a waiting game right now. hopefully something good will come from my pdoc appointment. thanks for listening everyone.
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