Posted by zana on August 22, 2009, at 10:37:43
I am now taking 8 meds. I am feeling better than I was at my worst. I am out of bed and not suicidal. But I am not great. I have bouts of weeping every day. I am apathetic, afraid to go out of the house myself, can't get started on things, feel energized but unable to do much with the energy. I am not really depressed. But there really isn't any happiness in my life.
My husband is convinced that I need to get off the meds I am on. I have tired just about everything exceot Parnate and Nardil. Before I was on this regime I was headed for ECT.
So maybe this is as good as it gets. Maybe this is as much help as I can expect from medication and I just have to live with the negative effects. My husband keeps saying you don't know what anything is doing and you need to closer to your native state. What if my native state is bed-ridden, suicidal depression?
I just don't know what to do. Eight meds seems crazy and I am not as well as I'd like be. My experience has been that when I try to decrease a med, like seroquel, I feel worse. I got down to 100mgs of seroquel from 150 over a couple of weeks and I felt much more weepy. I went back up and I felt better. What does that tell me? I need 150mgs of seroquel or I didn't give it enough time?
And if I decide to try to reduce my meds, how do I know where to start?
Right now I am embarassed to say, I'm on:
45 mg Remeron
300 mg Wellbutrin
100 mg Pristiq
150 mg Seroquel
1 mg Respridal
3 mg Klonopin
600 mg Gabapentin
200 mg Provigil
Any and all suggestions will be very much appraciated. By the way I have MDD, no msnia, no psychosis, nothing else.
Thank you.
Zana
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