Posted by yxibow on August 29, 2009, at 0:39:36
In reply to Re: i'm fat, sad, ugly depressed, psychotic, lonely, posted by linkadge on August 27, 2009, at 17:47:44
> Don't be so hard on yourself.
I would completely agree.
I could also describe myself, and I frequently see in the negative.... when you have a serious mental illness it is hard to step outside of yourself and not define yourself by the illness but by your personality, your traits, your humanity.
I mean I've been in therapy a long while and I've also had an illness for close to 8 years.
I am extremely overweight, conscious of that, very emotional and have primary and secondary depression (because of my illness and all that as come with it), I have a psychosis NOS (which doesn't mean I am not aware of it and it also doesn't fit into a category), and I am terribly lonely because its hard to make new friends, it takes time -- and I try to cling on to what friends I have, however imperfect and not say anything "too heavy" because I really don't have anyone that close outside of my therapy/family circle. I seem to lose people if I do.
And things seem to be getting worse, whether true or not. Its scary. And I can understand that feeling.
But it doesn't serve me any purpose to immerse myself in those thoughts 24/7 just like the illness is 24/7.
I know its hard to pull out of the deepness -- I am still trying.
Its no flaw in you I'm saying... its giving things a chance, a hope, a try, in the Here and Now.
-- much wishesJay
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