Posted by delna on October 17, 2009, at 13:03:04
In reply to Re: Parnate 4 OCD? Anyone with personal experience, posted by g_g_g_unit on October 17, 2009, at 2:05:36
> maybe it's a language-use problem. you said your OCD becomes "psychotic" really fast. does that mean you get real psychosis - like hallucinations, etc.? or you just mean it's really BAD OCD?
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> i was just curious if REAL psychosis (hallucinations, etc.) could appear in anyone when triggered by stress or whatever, or if there has to be some kind of genetic predisposition.
No, I mean psychotic. And I do think there must be something genetic about it because it doesn't happen to the majority f OCD patients. Mine has been long standing (started when I was 4-5 yrs old) and always becomes delusional (which is defined as psychosis). if not treatedFor example when I was younger, I used to keep having to check the mirror constantly because my face 'physically' changed every time I looked. Sometimes I looked like a man, other times a demon or it just mutated everytime. I actually saw this and even though it made no sense and people would say ' is that logical' it didn't matter because that is what I SAW. Ofcourse it started as a mere obsessional thought (I look like a monster) and progressed to a point that I didn't really know what I looked like because what I saw was different from reality (in retrospect)
Another time I started believing I had MS and kept checking myself for symptoms. Soon I started imaging symptoms- like I couldn't move my leg or close my eyes (or seeing flashing lights) and no one could convince me it was in in my head. I ended up in hospital because I actually believed I had it (despite specialists telling me that I didn't) and was going to kill myself. For the acute delusions I was given and antipsychotic but my pdoc (in London) was also meanwhile titrating me up on Effexor. The zyprexia went in a month, the effexor (300mg) stayed and the OCD didn't come back.
My last episode was perhaps the most scary because I suddenly got a thought that I was dangerous and may kill someone by mistake. The obsessional thoughts didn't go and soon I started truly believing I was dangerous and would suddenly harm someone randomly. I stopped going out and wanted to be put in a ward for the criminally insane because I was so sure it was true. I even started believing I had killed characters on TV. But because I started an SSRI really fast, this didn't get so out of control. It was just OCD- not yet psychotic.
Hope I didnt ramble too much and answered your question
Love
D
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