Posted by Meltingpot on November 30, 2009, at 12:07:51
In reply to ECT or wait in hell? PLEASE HELP ME, posted by inanimate peanut on November 30, 2009, at 11:44:37
Hi,
I know very much how you are feeling as far as feeling suicidal goes. I hope you feel better soon, as I hope that one day I will feel better (I mean truly better). What makes you think that the Ensam isn't going to work? Is that the depression talking do you think?
I know that ECT does really help some people but not others.
I've not had a full course of it but I would suggest that if you are going to have it ask for pulse wave, high dose right unilateral to start with as that is supposed to have less impact on memory (not for everyone though). I don't think you can take MAOIs though whilst having ECT.
I was feeling very suicidal and very anxious yesterday, today I just feel very empty.
The one thing you need to do right now (and I should practice what I preach) is not give up hope that one day you will get out of this awful state of mind and enjoy life as you are supposed to enjoy it.
A friend of mine always tells me that nothing is constant (although this depression feels pretty constant to me) so try and tell yourself that the way you are feeling won't be forever. Things will change.
Also, Zyprexa has always given me some relief from suicidal thoughts, so you might want to try that every now and again.
Sorry, I wish I could write something a bit more inspiring and encouraging but not feeling that positive myself right now. I know that there are others on this board though who will pipe in with lots of useful suggestions.
Keep battling on.
Denise
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