Posted by morganator on December 6, 2009, at 18:36:19
In reply to Re: Interested in Nortriptyline, posted by bleauberry on December 6, 2009, at 5:58:33
>I believe you can find benefit in the psychiatric toolbox. But it is almost 99% unlikely to happen with the meds you are currently taking. And though it would maybe take months or years, I think today is the day you should start researching what things cause depression, so that someday you can pinpoint your own problem and treat it, rather than merely relying on psych drugs to "maybe" mask the symptoms of it.
I agree with much of what you say. I've already decided that I may have to stop taking all the meds I am on even though I have had times when I have felt better. I believe there are underlying causes in my emotional psyche combined with the fact that I am bipolar, combining to cause much of my depression and anxiety. Currently my body is a wreck, I have no job or career, I wasted a ton of talent, and I feel totally lost at 37 years old. Because I feel such a mess in so many ways, I don't feel strong in the way I used to be, enabling me to maybe wait tables and meet new friends and restart my life. I don't have the focus or energy to go back to school for something I am passionate about. I live in a state of fear for the future and feel a great amount of loss in a short period of time. I have no escape. I cannot play my bass or drums like I used to because of my carpal tunnel issues. Every surgery I had this past year and a half left me worse off than before. I would have been better off just keeping on moving and working out and maybe getting lots of platelet plasma therapy. I wake up and get out of bed and feel like I have the body of a 70 year old. I have failed at so much, including taking care of myself, which has always been so important to me.
There are many reasons why I experience depression and anxiety the way I do. I have been thoroughly checked out by a very good primary care physician. I have been tested for Lyme Disease using the Western Blot test 3 times. The only thing that concerns me is that I could have some autoimmune disorder. Even if I do, I still have major issues with depression and anxiety that I have always had. My illness is rooted in biological and psychological causes. It has always been this way. I am also a very sensitive person. I find it odd that more people don't take what makes them human into account more often. I believe in the biological factors of the mind and body, but, I also believe in the emotional factors that can effect the biological.
Thanks again Blueaberry, you always give great and insight. I don't mind your approach at all.
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