Posted by Bob on December 28, 2009, at 14:17:28
In reply to Re: hi, why does everybody else is happy in my lif, posted by inanimate peanut on December 28, 2009, at 13:44:31
I struggle with this feeling almost every day. It is often overpowering and very difficult to deal with. If you look for it on the internet, tv and news, there is evidence that other people are going through similar things, but I can honestly say I don't personally know one other person who has endured anything like what my disease has done to me. If they are there, they're invisible to me personally.
It's brutal to be surrounded by people who are at a minimum functional, and in more than one case for my friends/family, very high functioning indeed. It means that holiday reunions and visits with family are an enormous, glaring spotlight on my utter incapability and lack of accomplishments. Of course, having depression makes this even worse because it causes me to reflect and ruminate on such things.
In essence, all the connection I have to others how have a problem even remotely similar to mine are almost abstract - like the people on this forum. I guess serious disease has always been like that and it's better now for people than ever before, but still it's rough.
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