Posted by Buckeye Fan on January 1, 2010, at 9:21:24
In reply to Re: New Year...New Plan, Advice needed...., posted by Relapse on December 31, 2009, at 10:31:56
> Be careful - I too wanted to find the real me after years of meds. A year @ 1/2 ago I came off all my meds. I found the real me several months later lying face down, quivering in a pool of sweat. Maybe someday.
> Dave
Dave...thank you for acknowledging the 800 pound Gorilla in the room that I didnt want to talk about.~
After reading hundreds of experiences from others who have attempted being Med Free, and ending up in a similiar state you described...it IS A BIG CONCERN OF MINE!
That of course is why "failed reinstatement" is such a concern to me.Some would advise me to just remain on my Meds since they are "working".
I guess I want more.
The old me that was full of life, energy and had a natural flow of emotional responses without medication.Were there problems that prompted me to seek help? Certainly.
Anxiety and panic attacks combined with Agoraphobia were my personal demons.But that was 15 years ago !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I am hoping that NOW my knowledge will allow me to understand my nervous systems response to stress, and be able to objectively see the inevitable "rebound effect" of both anxiety and depression.
I hope to go through the process of these likely nervous system responses...and to come out on the other side .I would however be less than honest if I didnt admit I am somewhat afraid.
Thank you for advice and concern
BF
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