Posted by conundrum on March 27, 2010, at 10:02:22
In reply to Re: That warm fuzzy feeling, posted by manic666 on March 27, 2010, at 5:46:19
My problem is that i don't get these feelings for my family and loved ones whether I'm on a drug or not. Its been like this since stopping prozac about 7 years ago. Anhedonia and lack of feelings is my only mood problem. I can be off meds and not feel sad or anxious, its the anhedonia thats terrible.
Right now my grandmom is in the intensive care unit of the hospital, recovering from a big surgery, where they removed a tumor. Whenever she starts coughing or the nurses have to do something unpleasant the rest of my family gets teary eyed and sometimes needs to leave the room, with the exception of my mom. My mom said she cried in private when she found out my grandmom had the tumor and when we found out she might have an infection. I don't think I've shed one tear since finding out about the tumor. I love my grandmom, she practically raised me. yet I don't feel the need to cry. I know I would have cried if we had lost her, but it takes something that extreme to make me feel something. Maybe this is normal for me, i've been anhedonic for so long I don't know how I would normally act. Luckily she is getting better now.
Anehdonia can almost make one suicidal in a way. Not that you are in so much pain that you want to die, but you are so apathetic, uninterested in the world around you, not trying to progress in your career and life that you just don't care. Death wouldn't seem too much different than how I already feel.
I'm not sure whether I need SSRIs or not. 2.5 mgs of prozac was the only SSRI recently that helped me and made me more motivated, but didn't really help with emotions. I felt more motivated to do things but didn't really know why i was lol. I know that sounds weird. Higher doses just made me unmotivated again.
Actually reading all the responses has made me feel more hopeful that something will help. So thank you to everyone who replied.
I guess I'm just not a patient person and sometimes I'm scared of making the wrong drug decisions and being stuck on something that doesn't work for months.
My doc will probably increase my pristiq dosage next week. We'll see what that does.
@sigimund
I am interested in hyderzine and deprenyl. I have never tried any nootropic drugs except for supplements, which didn't do much, like CDP Choline, acetyl L carnitine, etc. Maybe deprenyl being selective for MAO B could clear up if I need a dopamine boost or not?I seem to respond well to norepinephrine so if pristiq doesn't work out so well I will try to get a secondary amine tricyclic like nortriptyline, desipramine, or protriptyline. Maybe add low dose prozac to that. I'm also curious about adrafinil the prodrug of provigil. Wish Tianeptine was available in the US. I think that could be something that might help.. Sometimes I think I have permanently elevated serotonin levels from taking prozac.
Post-SSRI syndrome: iatrogenic anhedonia, memory and concentration problems, sexual dysfunction. [NOTE no sadness or anxiety, this is NOT depression!]
Current med: 50mg pristiq
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