Posted by whymelord on April 24, 2010, at 15:04:14
Mx: Major Depression with Anxiety (no anxiety at all these days)
Rx: 4 months Lexapro 20mg -> tapered to 10 mg 10 days ago, Lorazepam 1mg as required (taken just 2 times so far)My depression had almost gotten over.... but 3 days ago something very strange happened... I was sitting and reading a magazine and suddenly I felt something go wrong in my head - like I have lost the ability to think....I am deeply troubled over the past few days' experience of my "inability to think straight" - "unable to know how I think normally" - "mind feeling blank" and "thinking that I am thinking"... it is not that my mind is actually blank - I can write and talk and read - it is just that thoughts would emerge but I wont know how to "think" them.. It is so difficult to describe the feeling - its as though I would have a thought - lets say 'the weather is cold today'.... but I am at a loss 'how to think it in my mind'... it attacks the core of my existence - if you are unable to think what you want to think - and when you actually have a though you are unsure HOW to think it.... and I would leave it half way in-between and then I would be blank - only to get dysphoric and move on to some mentally engaging task like reading the newspaper - yet again only to read continuously - observing my own thoughts and reactions (basically none because I am self-observing).... hence feeling numb - hence adding to my discomfort and making me more depressed....
What has happened?Therapist says to calm down and let it be, it could be anxiety but so is not the case.... is it some sort of dissociation.... too early to diagnose I can understand...Please help ....
Is there any website/resource/online-free therapist who could help me... my therapist is going to be booted soon and I would take a couple of days to find a new one.... till then I need to maintain my sanity and not crash down.
poster:whymelord
thread:944876
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