Posted by stargazer2 on May 19, 2010, at 9:29:14
In reply to restart » stargazer2, posted by floatingbridge on May 18, 2010, at 19:53:55
Hi, I went up to 50 mg of "V" just today as the last few days I hadn't picked up the med yet. One pharmacy didn't have it and then I never got out of the house due to my depression being in full swing. Lots of thoughts in the last few days reliving past history and seeing how my thoughts are mirror images each time I go down...a spiral of negativity takes over. I guess that's why so many depressed sleep so they can try and block those thought out (or medicate them away)as that may be the only thing that can be done.
My fear is that coming off Nardil may have been too much for me to risk to try stimulants, but since I'm not working the risk seemed worth it for me. I've had depression so long that you would think I would be used to it but I always say my memory is going too, so that might be a protective thing. Except it affects ones ability to work unless your job is stress free or you own your business or something where you don't have to "perform" and compete with others every day.
So much living lost to this and so much wasted energy preventing all of us from being useful to society. Maybe I expect too much from myself as I'm sure many people in life don't give a sh*t about others and are fine with that attitude and they are not depressed. I know I overanalyze stuff and lately my reactions to any negativity is off the charts. I think anyone at home watching TV is exposed to more negativity because of the news today. Every news story reminds me of how F'ed up the world is. No wonder I am depressed, who wouldn't be, right?
Lately all of my posts are not focused onthe question and I get into so many things that should not be in this post...I'm not sure of the Vyvanse being the right med, 50mg may be too much, makes me wired not focused so can't get a good sense if it will work... I'll post agian once I have a better sense of it...I think my doc said I should know quickly if it is helping...
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