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Posted by floatingbridge on May 25, 2010, at 1:52:34

I think (right now) that I was better off before medication.
Yes, I started antidepressants because of depression. The depression was fed largely by anxiety, insomnia, and psychological issues.
After antidepressant use (two years in) came breakdown number one. (I had foolishly tried to self medicate with very low dose xanax--.)
I made it through school and graduate school unmedicated. Life kinda s*cked--it always has. But jeez, I'm not any better and am in fact worse.
I don't know how I'll ever work again much less string together enough sustained attention to 'be productive'
This isn't an anti-psych post. I'm just feeling scared. Today my pdoc (whom I like) said he didn't believe benzos, zdrugs and ad's affected sleep architecture. ???
That and when I decreased Xanax I had symptoms--I assumed it was just more mysterious symptoms that come and go, when pdoc says I'm experiencing withdrawal. Next day, in discomfort, I increase my dose a little. Yeah, the symptoms disappeared.
Life is going on and on (a bit like this post, I'm afraid).
I used to believe in medication.

MDD currently controlled. C-ptsd and comorbid health concerns. Chronic fatigue.

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uncertain, but certainly scr*wed floatingbridge 5/25/10
Re: uncertain, but certainly scr*wed floatingbridge 5/25/10
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Re: uncertain, but certainly scr*wed Phillipa 5/25/10
yes to all of the above floatingbridge 5/25/10
free fall? » Phillipa floatingbridge 5/25/10
Re: yes to all of the above » floatingbridge bulldog2 5/25/10
Re: free fall? » floatingbridge Phillipa 5/25/10
brushing off my dbt skills + other considerations floatingbridge 5/26/10
Re: brushing off my dbt skills + other considerations » floatingbridge Justherself54 5/26/10
Re: brushing off my dbt skills + other considerations bulldog2 5/26/10
Re: brushing off my dbt skills + other considerations » floatingbridge Phillipa 5/26/10
Re: brushing off my dbt skills + other considerati » Phillipa floatingbridge 5/26/10
Re: brushing off my dbt skills + other considerati » floatingbridge Phillipa 5/26/10
Re: brushing off my dbt skills + other considerati » Justherself54 floatingbridge 5/27/10
Re: brushing off my dbt skills + other considerati » floatingbridge Justherself54 5/28/10
Re: brushing off my dbt skills + other considerati » Justherself54 Phillipa 5/28/10

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