Posted by Huxley on June 9, 2010, at 5:33:55
In reply to Re: scott, posted by manic666 on June 8, 2010, at 12:47:19
I was put on Zoloft for Social anxiety when I was about 20 years old.
It helped alot at the time but of course it stopped working.I was shopped around all the SSRI's and SSNI's. Nothing really did much to help me.
I have always been mildly depressed or dysthymic. I have always had trouble relating to people
and 'fitting in'.I had a depressive episode when I was about 24 after the break up of a relationship.
I recovered from that and a couple of years ago I had another one, again at the end of a relationship.
I was a mess. I couldn't sleep and I was in a deep dark hole.My doctor put me first on Zyprexa and then seroquel as well. I stopped the Seroquel but stayed on the Zyprexa.
Things have progressivly gotten worse and so my doctor put me on lactimal and provigil.And that is where I am now. I am still dysthymic. I still have alot of anxiety, probably more than ever. And on top of
that I have the side effects that come with all these meds.I have never been the same as the day I was before I started taking zyprexa.
So thats why I ask the question. What are these medications doing for me? I still have all my original symptoms which
are probably worse anyway. I have trouble with the simpelest of tasks. My short term memory is gone, I can't remember a thing even if I try.
I forget words and muddle up sentances. I am pretty much emotionless, although I still seem to feel the bad ones.So i'm just as lost and messed up as most.
I want to see what life is like without meds and If I crash and burn in the process so be it.
I am encouraged my thousands of others who have done it and are living peaceful lives. And I am scarred of the thousands of others who have just lost
the plot attempting it. I am scared of the withdrawals. Maybe I will go through a year of hell and end back up here at square one but to me the risk of that is less than the risk of living the rest of my life like I am now.
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