Posted by med-amorphosis on June 12, 2010, at 3:48:13
In reply to Re: Gone with trimipramine, posted by med-amorphosis on June 9, 2010, at 9:16:24
Surmontil (trimipramine) has kicked in solidly now. YESSS!
I'm in a fairly constant good mood (within normal range) and I feel alive once more :)
And im still taking it in the daytime.
Theres sooo much I wanna say, but must hold back. Its just the sense of RELEEF which is riding along side. Its GREAT!
I've had much depression throughout my life, mainly related to alcoholism & drug use/abuse and of course fromm the inevitable lonelyness which accompanies/results from social phobia & AvPD. But this was my 1st true ON ITS OWN bout of depression I've ever had. Very scarey. Dead clinical. Unprovoked. Came from (seemingly) nowhere. Constant crying for NO REASON WHATSOEVER (at 1st). OUCH!
Its still early but I'm there. THANKS DOC!
Still one thing bugging me- the dreams. And they aren't just vivid, they're LUCID. Scarey at 1st but getting used to them. Can manipulate them too, in a way. Last night I dreamt I was out fishing but that my med was blurring my vision. Was virtually blind. So I 'decided' its best to tell everyone there for my own safety. They all took the piss at 1st but eventually we were ALL rolling in laughter! Bloody odd. NOT a nightmare at all. I just wish I could wake up from them at will but I struggle with that part. It must be both the side effects of the med (mentioned earlier in the thread) + the effects of giving up chronic cannabis use rolled into one. I would rather it went really.
"Thats all Folks!"
For now :)
Contributions still wellcome of course!
medU.K.resedent
Ills: Avoidant Personality Disorder, major depression, addictive personality
Regime: 90mg isocarboxazid, 4mg clonazepam, 50mg trimipramine-titrating to 100mg
poster:med-amorphosis
thread:947687
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