Posted by violette on June 12, 2010, at 15:04:37
In reply to The two 'psychoses' i had, posted by Hunk20 on June 12, 2010, at 2:51:21
Hi there,
Of course only your doctor/therapist knows for sure, but I definitely think the delusions were transitory as a result of losing your sense of self and emotional flooding. I think its called 'fragmentation'. In fact, based on what you had written, I don't even think you are bipolar....
It's not uncommon for people to create a false self to numb/block the pain resulting from our experiences with our parents. Many people remain in that state, totally unaware, in denial (like your father perhaps). It sounds like you had an awakening, so the good news is--a therapist can help you rebuild your authentic self. It's only uphill from here.
Schizophrenia, from my understanding, is more of a cognitive/thought disorder rather than merely a manifestation of 'psychosis'.
It sounds like you have a good personal support system in America with your friends and understanding and skilled therapist who was truly able to reach into your psyche. It does sound like you might be better off going back to the states. What do you think?
Did your doctor in Germany prescribe you an antipsychotic, or are you sticking with the Nardil? I would stick with the lower dose of Nardil and augment with Xanax to deal with any emotional flooding, for now. Maybe try a mood stabilizer if it becomes a frequent problem. It seems like your symptoms are more psychological and the Nardil will help you cope.
Hang in there-it sounds like you are going to be better than ever working towards self growth. I am truly touched by stories like yours and am silently cheering for you.
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