Posted by chrisg27 on June 15, 2010, at 2:40:05
Hey, I have been on and off counseled since I was a little kid. I have been given prescriptions for ADHD, Depression, Anxiety, Panic Attacks, all kinds of stuff. All of my doctors, psychiatrists, and psychologists said that because of my family background that I am most likely the same as them; depression, bipolar disorder, anxiety problems, alcoholic, etc. I have recently read more and more into this cyclothymia thing, and this sounds more like me. I'll have a short period of 1 to 2 weeks tops feelings normal, successful, powerful, on top of things, sometimes like superman. Soon after, I'll have a sometimes shorter period of extreme sadness, dread, hate, cynicalness, etc. I never thought of my moods being like a "cycle" such as the seasons. The only problem is I really dislike medication, the side effects, the permanent changes to your brain, and so on, I want to know if there is anything (except medicine) I could try to help control my moods. I just want to be normal all the time, I'm tired of changing my personality for people and hiding what I'm really thinking and feeling. Most people think I'm normal but it's only because I've gotten so good at masking it all. Also, sometimes I'll have days where I will feel fine all day and then suddenly something insignificant or mildly irritating will suddenly turn me into a irritable and very depressed person. That sounds more like bipolar but it's not all the time. I hate being fully aware of this, I could probably remember when my mood swings are scheduled better than when I have work.
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