Posted by Enigma on August 18, 2010, at 9:35:42
In reply to Re: 'Best Psychiatrist' list, posted by Dr. Bob on August 17, 2010, at 15:47:39
> > getting to see - or even talk with - the people on this list is often next to impossible.
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> It might not be here... :-)
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> BobDr. Bob, I don't get it. :(
I know a few of the names on that list already, e.g. Maurizio Fava was recommended to me years ago. Most of the docs listed in Boston, are like it says above, it's pretty much impossible to see them.
Dr. Fava is the Dept. Chair and Mass General and barely sees patients anyone. The others list a Mass General are NOT accepting new patients anymore either.
I called a doctor in Andover yesterday as this would make a great commute. I'm down to using my Droid cell-phone to do a look of the term psychiatrist and going from there.Monday, I was told I might be seen Friday, then I called Tuesday (because they said they were going to call me but didn't, then told me, sorry, all our docs are full and don't take medicare. They charge $250 for the first visit, and $90 for the med visits, but I honestly don't think with all their doctors (some place in Nashua) they have even one expert with treatment resistant depression.
I feel terrible today, as usual. Been waking up at 2:00 am every night for the past few nights. Yep, almost exactly at 2. Not sure why. My stomach hurt so bad I could do "anything". I took my stomach acid pain med (and took 2 more ambien, doubling the daily dose, I think, but it was the only way to get back to sleep.
Now, my headache is coming back on. I wonder if these headaches are stress or caffeine related. I've had caffeine withdrawal headaches before, but never their fierce or for this long of a period.
I don't think I've had a day where I was completely healthy and in a good mood as long as I can remember. Knowing you can escape is torture for me. I just want to give up this 16-17 year battle I've slowly been losing. If I die, I have no life insurance (if I'm lucky enough to die that way), and if I commit suicide, my kids will get over it eventually but will still destroy them for a long period of time, they could have problems with school, because depressed too, copy-cat me, etc, I'll put my family in financial ruin, they have to sell the house, move into a dump, and be on welfare.
Great choices. Either I suffer every day of my so-called life with no friends, no lover, no sex, no happiness, sleep 1/2 of each week, think of suicide every day, not able to work and make money - kissed my career away 8-10 years ago, and suffer, suffer, suffer and suffer, or kill myself and destroy my family.
Being depressed has already destroyed my family.Back to bed I guess since my headache is twice as bad as it was when I started writing this.
When am I going to look up other doctors.. my wife isn't doing it. When am I going to fill out the paperwork for the DBS study, my wife won't do it.I'm hopeless and alone. Great "life".
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