Posted by Maxime on October 6, 2010, at 21:58:09
In reply to Re: Why won't these suicidal ideations go away? » Maxime, posted by floatingbridge on October 5, 2010, at 23:52:43
> Maxie, this may sound odd and off the cuff and not at all what you and phidippus are talking about at all, however, I thought ptsd. Not that you or P. have it. As usual I understand so subjectivly through my feelings, I imagined walking through my home town and the awful lens that clouds my sight.
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> It's like my mind is engraved. I think sometimes why I want rTMS or fantasize about ect. Just to obliterate that same same everyday person I wake up being.That is really interesting. I never thought of that. I don't suffer from PSTD anymore, but I did in the past. I also wish I could have ECT with the hope of getting rid of certain memories.
I have to pursue your theory more ...
Bipolar Type 2, ED-NOS, Self-hatred
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Being happy doesn´t mean the pain is gone. you just bury it deeper.
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