Posted by Maxime on December 19, 2010, at 22:06:28
In reply to Re: Sorry: stupid question for this group of (course), posted by morgan miller on December 19, 2010, at 21:03:31
My depression is so bad that my pdoc has requested that I contact him *every day* to give him an update.
Yet I hold down 3 jobs (only 1 full time), I do volunteer work and I take care of my mom who has Alzheimers. I have been accused by doctors ( in the past) that I must not be truly depressed if I do the things that I do. My response has always been, imagine what I COULD do if I didn't suffer from BP type II, anxiety, PTSD and MS. I do all these things and yet at night, or when I am in the car I cry and cry because everything hurts. Every part of my body hurts, and the depression takes over.
So I don't think that doing all these things helps my depression, it just allows me to push the pain further down inside me which is probably the MOST unhealthy thing for anyone to do. I cry A LOT. I cut a LOT. I shake a lot.
And I wish I could go into a coffee shop and sit down like a normal person and have a coffee. But my anxiety is too great to do that. I've tried, but at the most I have lasted 3 minutes.
As long as the world shall last there will be wrongs, and if no man objected and no man rebelled, those wrongs would last forever. ~Clarence Darrow~
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