Posted by Christ_empowered on January 27, 2011, at 22:02:00
I've been diagnosed as having Bipolar type I w/ psychotic features. I take 30mgs Abilify and 20mgs Celexa daily. I'm a bit too tranquilized.
What's creepy about the meds is that they've made me so docile, so inert. I'm creepily OK with a pig sty apartment and being jobless and living off my parents. My ability to dream, to think, to feel, to envision a world outside of the present (and the present is usually my poorly lit, messy apartment).
I'm done. I'm going to keep on going to therapy, because my therapist is great and he challenges me. I'll let him know what's up when I see him. If I start hearing voices again and/or get really paranoid, I'll take meds for a bit.
I've read---I think in "Mad in America"--that some people with serious mental problems end up recovering after they taper. Some keep a big bottle of antipsychotics around so that when the psychosis hits, they're ready. These sound like viable alternatives to being put in chemical restrains (I'm sure daily meds work a lot of people, but for me, they're stripping me of humanity).
When I was in the mental hospital a couple years ago, I overheard a psychiatrist talking about my case. He said that I might be able to only take meds when under severe stress or when the "symptoms" became too much for me to handle. Of course, he didn't tell me that. Now, I think I'm going to give it a try.
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