Posted by hyperfocus on June 2, 2011, at 15:08:33
In reply to is anyone ambivalant about living?, posted by floatingbridge on May 30, 2011, at 20:26:52
I'm not ambivalent - I actually care a great deal about living. It's just that I love so much the good and beautiful things and I hate with all the anger and passion I have the wrong and ugly things , that a lot of the time I find my life to be unbearable because of this affliction I have.
I also have short periods of lucidity and improvement and I hold on to these during the bad times, together with things I've read and seen in films. Just knowing something exists is not an unfair substitute for actually having it. I also keep in my mind that there are many people on the planet who have to make do with less.
So no chance of amitrip for the fibro yet? It might be worth whatever risk or SEs if it can manage the fibro pain.
C-PTSD: social phobia, major depression, dissociation
Currently on 150mg amitriptyline single dose at night.
Improving.
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