Posted by floatingbridge on June 13, 2011, at 18:10:42
In reply to need advice ASAP!, posted by manduh on June 12, 2011, at 23:29:09
Manduh,
The following is 100% subjective advice. I will use as many "I" statements as possible.
First of all, I personally did not like cymbalta as an AD. It worsened my depression and this could be a big part of worsening my depression, muffled my cognitive abilities. However, you reported doing well on it.
You mention disassociating. May I ask you what your dx is? And who is treating you, psych or a gp, or...?
I think that sometimed parents can make things 1000x worse just when they are needed most. Sad, but true in my
experience. Do you have a therapist. I think you need to have support from outside your family as well as from inside.Any, any hunch what is triggering this wave of pain? You don't need to tell me. But maybe you can break it down into smaller pieces. Do you journal?
Non-depressives DO NOT get it. Today
my shrink told me about a study that said as much and also said what a non-depressed person can do, a person undergoing depression simply cannot. It has nothing to do with will-power or wishing. Depression is a real illness and not everyone understands that. Who would rather stay home and feel crummy and crying rather than work. I don't personally know anyone who would choose that.It could be your parents are scared, frustrated, angry at your illness. I am sorry to hear that you are being blamed in any way. I'd love to take that load of blame off your shoulders.
If you are not in therapy, I feel it would serve you well in many ways (a good fit and appropriate therapy).
Many here have self injured and have and do deal with it successfully.
Some find risperdal or zyprexa helpful,
but I am not suggesting them, only pointing to what others here have found helpful.You are not suicidal, are you?
If you have the urge to self-injure, do
you have someone to call? Even a hotline. And please post here. Sometimes the response may not be immediate, but be persistent, please.Let us know how you are doing, and keep working towards solutions. You can diminish your pain greatly.
There is something to be said about keeping a job, but I don't think for the same reasons your mom said. Mind you, I'm not advising not to take a leave, esp if it does not endanger your
employment.Take very good care of yourself, please.
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c-ptsd & attendant health concerns
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