Posted by Amu on July 14, 2011, at 14:49:37
So basically I'm having trouble figuring out what my disorder is. I've spoken to several doctors about it. I have ADHD-Combined type for sure as well as OCD, but that is not what concerns me. I have other symptoms I thought belonged to a mood disorder, but I'm unsure and so are the doctors I've mentioned it to.
Basically, through out the day, almost every day for the past several years, I'll get random short periods of severe loneliness and sadness, suicidal thoughts, severe hopelessness, it'll last anywhere from a few minutes to a few hours. I thought it is simple and must be Bipolar or Depression, but there are other things too. Sometimes they are random, but they are also caused by the little events. I'll be on my computer at night, feel really lonely and feel like my life sucks and I should die. But then something might happen and I'll get really happy and be fine, I get very excited and very happy really easy too, sometimes I'll think I'm on top of the world and my life is awesome, all of this can happen in the period of one day. The periods of overexcitement and happiness are almost always short, usually a few minutes. I also get periods of severe agitation and irritability on and off.
The reason I have trouble just labelling it "Rapid Bipolar" is because I have this other issue where I have EXTREME sensitivity to what other people say. I'm affected by what people say very easily, I'm also made upset by them but it just affects me in a general way. Sometimes I'll get upset by it, sometimes it just permeates through my mind as if there was no barrier between me and them. Something someone with a complete loss of ego boundary would experience. It could be anything, just talking to people or reading something. If I'm on a forum and someone says something I don't like, instead of just reading it normally and that being the end of it, it'll have a far too unproportional and almost absurd amount of influence on me. I tend to overeact to things people do or say despite knowing it is not logical and without wanting to.
All of the above symptoms are completely resistant to treatment by exercise, yoga, supplements, Cognitive Therapy, Omega 3, SSRIs, lamotrigine, remeron, and abilify. I also have no hormonal imbalances nor thyroid dysfunction.
Any suggestions on medications, diagnosis, and overall advice would be great.
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