Posted by Zonked on July 27, 2011, at 14:52:34
Thanks to all who've responded to my threads. A brief review of them shows me some days I feel okay, and others I feel like I'm not taking anything at all. The side effects are harsh. I wish I could get through the day without caffeine... If I drink it, and cannot avoid the nap, I wake up dysphoric. Even if I cut down on caffeine and nap, still wake up like that. I wonder if a switch to Xanax would help, from Klonopin. Until I can see the doc, antihistamine sleep is better than unmedicated sleep. A lot of my depression and anxiety these days seem to be about particular things in my life. But I wonder if my wiring is now such that, even with a job and finances and other things settled, my brain will "find" things to be frustrated, anxious, or depressed about. I want real complete remission, I want to look at each day with a can do attitude rather than dragging myself through it with sodas. I am gonna stay on Nardil because it has done far more good than harm. I am gonna hope the side effects go away or become tolerable. Finally, I am hoping for remission. When I was on Nardil in 2007, the relief was pretty quick and way way more consistent. A slower, more gradual recovery may be in the cards this time. I was working then, so that may have helped. Who knows? I am so sorry for posting so much. I am so scared about so many things. I yearn for the day when I can truly relax and enjoy life to the fullest again. Hopefully, that will be possible.
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