Posted by zonked on August 3, 2011, at 9:58:21
In reply to Re: Would a cry be good? I can't.SLS? » Zonked, posted by SLS on July 29, 2011, at 20:17:32
> > So many pills, so little time.
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> Yes. It is a race to be won through patience.
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> My response to treatment has been more and more variable recently, with more worsenings than impovements. I would not use my case as a model for your mood illness, however. Each case represents a conglomeration of biology and psychology with a unique resulting phenotype. You and I might respond very differently to the same drug.
>I know. And it's probably too late (my pdoc appointment is today) to pick your brain about this, but I did want to ask if you could remember how brief your initial blip was. I mean, mine was REAL.. you know how you can tell you've drank caffeine? It was totally the "Nardil" feeling from before. 1 week, 2?
Pdoc appointments make me frustrated and nervous, even with ones I know. I know it's not my fault, but I also know I respond better to Xanax than Klonopin or Ativan, which dull things but make depression worse; I want new thyroid and testosterone labs run. I am not a typical patient that says "Here's X Y and Z, can you adjust my scripts? Thanks."
Instead I go in with a list of notes and my ideas often get dismissed. I want my thyroid tested, I want my testosterone tested as well (last test circa 1 year ago was in the low 400s, that's all I remember.)
I can't help but wonder if some unconventional treatment would help me. But I am stuck with the doctor as a broker.
We all are.
Morning dread is back, and Ann Hedonia and her twin sister Ann Ziety are creeping their way back.
I..just..want..my..life..back.. I want to have the capacity to enjoy life, not go through the motions.
Deplin isn't covered by my insurance, which rules that out. Too expensive.
Wish me luck. I will be asking to replace Klonopin with Xanax which is NOT something I want to have to do. And I don't want to be labeled for it either.
-z
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