Posted by Zonked on August 18, 2011, at 21:19:09
Let's ignore that Depression came first for me. I have found myself in a trap of sorts... benzos don't seen to help me through anxious situations anymore. What they do do is make me feel okay with avoidance. I wonder if I've developed avoidant pd... everything scares me. Things that are no logical threat at all give me terrible anxiety. Like calling to find out how much I owe comcast. What threat is that to me? I owe them the money. I spend hours agonizing over confronting each fear, then when I do something, I'm exhausted. If I don't treat my depression and anxiety now, it'll get worse. But I wonder if years of suffering have permanently wired me to be phobic. It used to be that benzos helped me to do things. Now they make it less hard not to. I wish the government would identify those of us with potential to get back to contribute to society and put up in a boot camp or something run by psychologists. I don't want a lifetime of hanging my head low and sleeping to avoid life, obsessively searching the internet for cures, only to discover that there is none. Maybe if I just confront my fears I'll be able to have them not wear me out, with time. This has been suggested in books. If true it's not going to be an easy fix. I hate anxiety.
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