Posted by floatingbridge on August 24, 2011, at 22:37:42
In reply to Re: Look, I know I complain, » floatingbridge, posted by hyperfocus on August 22, 2011, at 21:40:28
Hi HP,
I thought about the Florence Nightingale story for a few days. At first, I didn't get it. Yesterday, I had a conference with my son's play therapist, and she gave me solid marks on parenting. I really tried to take that in and not discount it. I seem to concentrate on what I cannot do. So your story came back to me last night, like, oh, maybe that's what he meant.
Thanks for your support. I wish you to have what you wish for, too. You seem to have such ability to foster positive change. You are right that I am lucky to have a family, a good family, really. Being a mom has reopened many issues. I fear having the audacity to have had a child. The responsibility of parenting, even the intimacy involved are major efforts. They really don't come easily to me. The love
does, but not the skills. And fear can create such an eclipse. Then there is the worry. You can imagine. But then, it's that phenomena I experience of others being somehow more alright than myself.Jeez, with Emsam on board my pdoc will not script the ami. So I am staying steady on the Emsam and risperdone. That's good advice, and I appreciate you reminding me to stay steady. That was my doc's advice today too.
Thanks HP.
I dig a pony.
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