Posted by Christ_empowered on August 28, 2011, at 19:42:34
In reply to Re: Are you disabled? - Psychosis?, posted by Solstice on August 28, 2011, at 14:19:46
I think "psychosis" is too vague and general a term. Different people experience hallucinations differently, and the content of their hallucinations vary wildly.
For me, my major "crack up" was like this: I started out hearing voices saying negative things about me, but I knew they weren't real. This had been going on for 2+ years (I hadn't been taking meds) and I was used to it. Then, it "revved up"; I started believing bizarre things. I thought, for instance, that I was "the transcendent one" and an "avatar." I also thought there were cameras in my apartment and that my ex-shrink was filming my nervous breakdown. I later became convinced that my ex-shrink had been putting massive quantities of Thorazine in my food, juice (I loved Welch's), and niacinamide capsules in an effort to create the world's first real "chemical lobotomy."
My psychosis has dissociative features, which for me just meant I learned to space out from everything and carry on. I lost a lot of weight, I looked younger and got really pale. With the help of Klonopin and Ativan, I was able to sometimes seem normal.
After this more active psychosis, I entered a phase of a hollowed out, slow psychosis. I couldn't think clearly, I was lazy, and I was wide-eyed and dulled out.
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