Posted by rjlockhart04-08 on September 24, 2011, at 19:29:41
Prozac 60mg
Wellbutrin 300mg
Zyprexa 20mg
Clonodine .1mg X 3 dailyand all of these medications do not have any effect at all. They all pooped out. I don't understand why I am so resistant to many meds. I was hoping they would help and im having no effect from them at all. This is so frustrating because I called my doctor and told her they where not working and left her a message about Parnate and the Daytrana patch which is basically Rililin that you patch it on to your skin. It still can be abused but it has less abuse potential than the pill form.
See all the advice I get here I'm so appricative of it but It's like I read it and then don't listen to it after im done and people have taken their own time to help me and I just avoid doing anything. That's why im so miserable because im such a passive agressive but mostly passive person. I resist things that require work. I want a pill to do it for me because it seems easy and that's a horrible mental state. I am pretty dependant on people and substances to do things for me. That's why I have been asking people to rescue me and help me get out of the misery I am but you know I don't know if I can really even help myself. I try and then give up. I get frustrated too much and then I have anxiety from my errors. I want to sleep and I can't because I want to avoid this reality I'm in and go to the dream world and live there where when your in the dream world you can make it any way you want it to. Lucid dreaming. Its fun!! but its an escape for me. I always want my dreams to get me out of the reality I live in where I am trapped at home screaming for someone to come rescue me and get me on the road to success. I depend on people too much to do it for me. I'm like a baby. I'm limited because I don't feel i have the potnetial to get where I wnat to go which is to work for Merrill Lynch and be a investment banker. That's my dream but I am so disorganized. I lose things frequently. I forget various important dates and people scold me alot for my errors. People its not easy being me I'm very limited to somethings and one of them is living life like a normal person.
I just hope someday people will understand. But they can't do anything because I have to save myself. I don't want to be sad person anymore.
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