Posted by Tepi on October 5, 2011, at 18:57:20
In reply to Re: Lyrica - social phobia » Tepi, posted by SLS on October 4, 2011, at 21:18:26
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The PDoc that ha evaluated me with more calm says I suffer from a schizoaphective disorder . Others doctors just simply dont know. I suffered from depression and mild psychotic disorders which are control to a 50%
The worst of all is Social Phobia , terrible. My mind its always busy thinking how sick I am , so these are destrcutive thougths and Im thinking all the time to hurt myself
I Live in others people mind, Im so worried about what the could think about me so when Im in a group or even in front of only 1 person Im so scared thinking that they are thinking bad things about me.
My intelligence tells me that that isnt true but my heart and my feelings tells me the opposite so at the end I end up feeling so bad, terrible .
So basically Im alone and maybe I will die alone, I cant interact with nobody , not even with my parents , Im not in good mood and Im not prosocial. How to live in that way?
Example
I saw this guy walking on the street (about six meters away), and he reminded me of someone I know as a friend . In these situations It always happend the same, I think , Don´t look at me! Is it him? I can´t look at him... Oh no he has seen me... Was it my "friend"? Sh*t, what if it was? Dammit, now I must go and talk to him and act nice.... Those kind of strange things would occur
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