Posted by rjlockhart04-08 on October 9, 2011, at 1:37:16
Well, i posted most of what was going on the social board. You know maybe its zyprexa that makes me feel so horrible. I get in these states where I am just in BAD mood and I drink coffee to change my perception of how horrible things seem. I wished I could just take something and make all this suffering go away but im pretty limited because I am an addict and addict's usally are denied benzodiazpines, well in my case. Actually every naroctic I can't take because of the risk of addiction. Really I see nothing wrong with it but i've learned in Narcotics Ananymous that we are allergic to narcotics and only take them as needed depending what the circumstances are. I really sometimes do not like being in NA but my life has improved some but I've really started to avoid people because how bad my life feels right now.
Can someone tell me exactly what I should do with my shrink. I mean she will listen to me "SOMETIMES" BUT she always avoids any medication that are ... addiction potential and she found out that lyrica was a scheduel 5 controlled substance and weaned me off it.
I don't know. I'm so miserable and ungrateful for who I am for not getting out into that world and making something of myself. I'm just discusted with who I am. BUT I need to thank everyone here that has given me support and advice. I need not to think about what I don't have and start thinking of what I do have even thought I don't like what I already have right now.
Anyways. I'll just have to wait and see what happens.
Matt
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