Posted by Chairman_MAO on November 15, 2011, at 6:46:14
In reply to Re: How's It Going? » Chairman_MAO, posted by SLS on November 14, 2011, at 20:22:57
> All systems go!
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> - Scott
>Yup! *crosses fingers* I already feel better from upping the dose by 20mg, but I've been at this long enough to know that's transitory. I'm lucking out in the side effects department because I don't notice any carb cravings.
I am trying not to be intimidated by the benzo taper. I have a somewhat irrational fear that doing this will make me more likely to relapse (substance abuse). I drank alcohol a few days ago, which is not something I have ever had a problem with, but I cannot afford to use _anything_ that is not prescribed _ever_. I've got a _really_ good guy in my corner--the best anyone could ever hope for on medicaid--and I don't want to blow it. And by that I mean that should I drink alcohol, there is always the possibility that my inhibitions could be loosened and I take something else, and then it could get really bad.
I think I gotta work on some mindfulness stuff and join a support group. The 12-step stuff seems lacking in "adult supervision", if you know what I mean. There is small SMART recovery group (run by psych grad students and volunteers) that I once went to that I should try again.
I mean, how many doctors who take charity care will do an MAOI + psychostimulant combo? I am really lucky and I can't mess this up. Plus, aside from losing him, there is this whole thing called "life" that I want to re-establish.
Thanks for your support.
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