Posted by b2chica on February 6, 2012, at 15:30:17
In reply to Re: is it even possible to die from... » B2chica, posted by Zyprexa on February 3, 2012, at 0:01:15
he actually upped my gabapentin to 1500mg/day.
and i'm to call him in a week to update.
i think i will ask about upping the perphenazine. i actually thought aobut that but wasnt sure if i should bring it up or not.
i know if i'd just go back on zyprexa i'd be ok. but i just cant deal with the side effects right now.
at least the perphenazine wont be a weight gainer. i still havn't lost the 12lbs i gained in november due to two weeks on zyprexa. :(but i just want to lay on the couch covered up and staring at nothing. i then want to go to bed. i think partly from the high dose of gabapentin and xanax i'm taking at this point. but this is certainly depressive episode. lasting too long for anything else.
i know overdose on those will do nothing to me. but my thoughts still wonder there now and again.
i'm just floating at about 60-70%.
i want to get back enough to be a good mom again. :(
its so hard to even get the energy to give them baths...
i hate how i'm functioning right now. but i have SO MUCH external stress due to my job right now.i've interviewed with another person in the building and still havent heard back.
my other boss has called me in now twice about my 'hours' that i'm cheating him on time or something. on the one hand he doesn't want me going out my break walks that i used to do to help with stress, and then on the other hand he complains that i'm writing down overtime. he says he doesn't approve overtime. well i KNOW that, this department never has but the personell person told me i HAVE to write down my exact hours even if i dont get paid for overtime. so i do. so lets see i'm cheating you of 15 min per day for my walk and im givnig you about 2-3 hours overtime per week....hmmmm somehow i'm getting yelled out for giving not enough AND too much....
figure that fu&ked up guy!
thanks for listening.
i actually feel like i got a little chip off my shoulder.
buti feel like he's trying to get rid of me.b2c. :(
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