Posted by g_g_g_unit on February 20, 2012, at 5:40:10
Just curious if there was a breaking point? I understand that certain circumstances - i.e. genuine suicidal intentions, psychosis, catatonic/vegetative depressions, being completely unable to care for yourself, etc. - would automatically warrant hospitalization.
Since I live at home and don't have any real responsibilities, it's something I've managed to avoid, though I do feel like there have been times where it would have been in my favor.
I'm just at the point now where, like, every daily stressor feels insurmountable. I live from hour-to-hour, day-to-day and I can't picture going weeks on end like this anymore. I have a plan to end my life, which I find reassuring to think about, but I have no intentions to act on it at this point.
I don't know if the Depakote is making me feel worse. I generally tend to feel best for the 2 hours after each tiny 5mg Parnate dose, and then fall into (stimulant?) withdrawal.
My hesitations are a) that my psychiatrist has said he wouldn't be able to treat me himself if I was admitted to hospital, and b) I don't trust the public psychiatric system in Australia (my insurance doesn't cover private). I just worry I'd end up overmedicated, though I'm not sure if that's a realistic concern. I also think I'd have more chance being diagnosed with leprosy than ADHD comorbid with OCD.
So I don't know if it would just be better to carry on the way I have been - i.e. doing my best to distract myself and hang in there - while remaining in private, out-patient treatment.
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