Posted by Phillipa on February 24, 2012, at 19:49:45
In reply to Re: dysthymia =) MDD, posted by Twinleaf on February 24, 2012, at 19:24:54
Twinleaf I do understand. But unlike Linkage. I do have childhood emotional abuse, I was more the bully in school beat up boys, I am not narcissistic, very insecure, brought up with no faith at all. I don't know how to believe after being an RN I was taught you had to see to believe and I need someone very strong to guide me. I'm honestly terrified of death and don't know how to accept it. I worry incessantly about health issues, cancer, heart disease, this neighborhood is well to do and I'm now at the bottom of the financial ladder so I do feel like I'm materialistic to a point. Example and I do know I'm fooling myself but when had cosmetic surgery looked younger felt younger hence not as old as I am. I'm in shock that in less than a month I will turn 66. Now that is old. How does one change at my age? I know you can't do the work for me. I'm somewhat dependant now when younger so independant as needed to be to survive this instinct kind of is burned out. It's very hard. Maybe not for others but for me it is. Twinleaf you are truly perceptive. And I do so appreciate it. Thanks Phillipa
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