Posted by raisinb on March 2, 2012, at 13:25:00
In reply to Re: Headache, mild memory loss, and feeling suicidal, posted by alchemy on March 2, 2012, at 11:32:57
I am debating calling my pdoc; she's been very unhelpful recently. She never had many answers to my questions, and now she's taken to saying, "well, what do you want to do?" whenever I have an issue. She doesn't seem to have any expertise I can't get from reading the boards here or even crazymeds or wikipedia.
I feel very bad, but I think I can maybe stick it out for a few more days. I don't know whether this is because I went off my meds for a few days a couple weeks ago, or if the Trileptal is specifically making it worse. I guess only time will tell.
For the past several years, my depressions have followed seasonal rhythms: they start in late winter and get worse until between spring and fall I either overdose or something else bad happens. I feel I'm following that trend now. I'm so depressed I'm not remembering things I do and I don't seem to be doing things for well-thought-out reasons. For instance, a few days ago, I felt so bad I boarded my dog for several days on impulse. I don't have the money to do this and thinking back I don't understand why I did it. It's not that it's a totally bad thing I just don't remember why exactly I did it. I seem to be making decisions unconsciously.
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