Posted by rjlockhart04-08 on May 2, 2012, at 1:06:02
I've best explain this that the symptoms my mind causes is causing this to turn into an illness that makes me feel sick alot. The depression and the sadness are results of my failure to have productivity in my life. My pessimism is caused because of failed beliefs and failed expextations, now it can restart again, my errors where in my beliefs and this is what is causing all this negativity in my thoughts. My mind will create espcape ventures, and create though adjusters to assist me in my life. I have extensivly researched Lucifer but I keep coming to the find that it leads to death...eternal death also..the stuff that is channeled into my thoughts that I google and look up is vary dark and i wonder why I am so gloomy most of the time, but I choose to do this...as a release to find somesort of help from anything. I have created things to help me get through these bad times of depression that cause me to be sick. I just want to get away from all this, I never planned that I would be 25 years old and in the same place that I was when I was 15. It is the all time failure of my expectations, and that's what causes pessimism thinking about who I am, and what I have done...I have not achieved much, and really I don't want to be in this same place 10 years later...but I must accept that I am responisble for my life.
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