Posted by b2chica on May 23, 2012, at 12:06:47
right now i just cant seem to get my head above sea level. i'm not really bad depressed. but i'm tired all the time, blah, cant really enjoy anything. keep myself busy at work but spacing off a lot.
and Now (last week i found out)...after 15 years, my position is being cut. yes i should be thankful as i have 6mo to a year before im booted out. But. i'm so specialized i dont think i'll ever find anything. i just applied for one position that would be great. almost too good to be true. and i'm a nervous wreck.
what if i dont get it
what if i do.i dont want to mess with meds right now, what if it causes me sick days and i miss an interview. what if i'm a mess.
ok. i am a mess.i have two more weeks before ill hear anything. and its all i can think (obsess) about.
not to mention the surprise of this position being cut. crap.someone out there send me good 'hire me' vibes, prayers, light a candle, something.
this is a shock or a push, one of the two.
"What is madness, but nobility of soul at odds with circumstance.
The day is on Fire, and i know the purity of pure despair."
Theodore Roethke
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thread:1018540
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