manic behavior is starting...nueroleptics needed

Posted by rjlockhart37 on October 15, 2012, at 23:45:29

whewwwwwwww its me....i've been on a vary unpleasant mental roller coaster for the past 6 hours nervous as hell...my mind is thinking beyound its normal limits again into the spirit links....this is going to sound crazy like i posted a couple months ago...but like I said my obession with lucifer for the past couple months has made me realize the real fact of the matter...even thought he's intresting..smart, and intelligent, he's a cruel, mind controlling psychopath...i've done tons and tons of research and came across various sources, who knows what their validity is...but it warned that he will befriend people and then become abusive and he changes his image so theirs no trust in the words. No matter how glorious he looks...its nasty when you really get to know the truth.
So....needless to say i've spend all day in fear thinking i've been afflicated with mental illness by the devil....all the mental confusion, the manic symptoms, the insomnia...just no one realizes how I view these things because they seem so real to me, and then when I tell people...there's no understanding of logic. It's frustrating and makes situations feel alone, and like im beyound help. Yet, during this time...i realized this is too much thinking, and started researching fears of religious beliefs....it came it came up in the search results as delusional thinking. I'm just glad im self aware of my thoughts, instead of them controlling my life view.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Delusion
But....out of all this, im gonna have to get back on zyprexa...seroquel, or clozapine. The nervous hell....my mind is going through is too much, i've been using self stablization to prevent from breaking reality....like keeping yourself calm...still this is hell...
anyways...i guess I do have some features I didnt want to realize I had. Still this is a nasty ride...
r
not a scholar but understand distress
Med:
Prozac 60mg
Lamictal 300mg
Fanapt 16mg
Nuvigil 250mg
encourage you to avoid false lights of enlightenment

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manic behavior is starting...nueroleptics needed rjlockhart37 10/15/12
Re: manic behavior is starting...nueroleptics needed jono_in_adelaide 10/16/12
Re: manic behavior is starting...nueroleptics needed SLS 10/16/12
Re: manic behavior is starting...nueroleptics needed » rjlockhart37 phillipa 10/16/12
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