Posted by Phil on October 23, 2012, at 13:02:05
http://natashatracy.com/bipolar-disorder/im-tired-fighting-bipolar-disorder/
This lady has a great blog on mental illness and man did this article hit home. It says exactly how I feel.
I obviously got angry at a few posters here. If I was in a good place, I would have just ignored it, but I am not in a good place.
I think everyone can relate to this article.
I let my anger get the best of me and I couldn't let it go. Predictably the downward spiral hit and suicidal ideation right along with it. I'm better now so I don't want police knocking on my door, again.
When someone decides to insult you here or anywhere, they have no way of knowing how your life is going. They may not care which I find very sad. They may think, hey, just a little barb, right?
I had no way to know how comments here would set me off but we all deal with serious illness that dictates how you will react and rational thought is out of your grasp.
I'm not angry anymore, I'm completely exhausted and a bit sad.
I know of three members here that committed suicide. I'm sure that it wasn't a rude post that caused it. Taking your life is driven by the disease and social circumstances. But can anyone really tell where another person's pain level is at? Sometimes when my humor kicks in I'm at me worst.
Dr Bob has let this place go and from what I've seen, given Dinah a bucket to bail out the Titanic. To me, it's like walking into your psychiatrists office as he walks out to catch a movie. Inexcusable and dangerous.
I'm still not sure where I'm at or if I'll regret this post in 20 minutes. But if we can't let it out here, then where?
Not everyone here is a bad person, none of us are bad people. And we all have those bad days. But it's no one's privilege to tell a stranger to stop their meds, EVER. It's no one's right to tell another that they are consumed with self-pity.
We know how the world treats people with mental illness. We know that friends back off or disappear, we know that family does the same sometimes because they might say the wrong thing. If we can't think of what to say to a poster but want to say something try, I can't know how you feel but I know you're having a hard time. I care about you and you will never be alone.One must still have chaos in oneself to be able to give birth to a dancing star.
Friedrich Nietzsche
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