Posted by brynb on December 26, 2012, at 12:26:00
I was doing ok (well, sort of ok; more like up and down), and I'm back in a hole. Depressed as ever. All I can do is sleep. I was on lithium, Lexapro, Subutex and Librium, but now I'm down to just Lexapro, Tramadol and Librium. I feel like I've tried everything (except MAOIs--with the exception of macoblamide and emsam), and it's probably in my head, but I feel like my pdoc is losing patience with me.
I'm really sensitive to a lot of meds, especially those that hit norepinephrine. Most mood stabilizers haven't been great, either. I also don't like APs; they all make me feel strange in one way or another. I'm at the end of my rope. I'm so tired of depression ruining my life. I'm 38 and the only work I do is freelance from home (which I can barely do because I just want to sleep); I used to teach, but I can't/don't take jobs anymore as I'm too unpredictable and unreliable. My family is sick of me being this way and it's really gotten to my mother--she's beyond upset and concerned and it inevitably leads to fights.
Any suggestions? Anyone know of good mood disorder pdocs in the NYC area? I can't deal with this any longer.
Thanks in advance.
-b
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