Posted by g_g_g_unit on January 28, 2013, at 2:31:57
In reply to Re: disheartening psychiatrist appt. » g_g_g_unit, posted by Emme_V2 on January 27, 2013, at 11:44:36
> He said that to you?? Lack of responsibility?? Idealized dependence on medication to fix you?? I'll keep my tongue (or keyboard) in check and not use any expletives. It really sounds as if this guy is arrogant and condescending and is blaming you for the fact that he hasn't been able to help you more to date. That's not anyone's fault really - it's just the way it is at this moment. I hope the psychopharmacologist he's referring you to will be able to help.
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> I really don't think it's unrealistic to want to find medication that helps relieve your suffering. We all do. We all know that the pills aren't going to jump out of the bottle and magically do our windows, pay our bills, and drive us to our therapists. But if you got a little relief, you'd stand a chance of doing all of those other helpful things that will get your life back to functioning. It sounds like you are suffering badly and clearly need better care than this man is able or willing to offer. Good luck with the new guy. Are you looking for a new therapist as well?
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> emme
>Hmm, well, it was strange. He made a point of bringing up how I was always afraid of him and never genuinely believed he cared for me -- i.e. the fact that I couldn't challenge that belief was proof of my lack of willingness to change. It's left me quite confused because I blame myself for not being able to feel or experience his 'care', but at the same time, I've never felt an overwhelming sense of warmth from him as a father figure that would undo the damage my own father has done.
Anyway, I don't know if he will refer me. He also made a point of mentioning a psychopharmacologist he sent me to for a one-off appraisal (who was a stuff old jerk), but then said there are "other psychopharmacologists out there".
I was seeing a separate CBT therapist for OCD, but my depression was too severe to implement any changes. I'd like to continue seeing him, but I would first need to get my anxiety/depression more under control.
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