Posted by rjlockhart37 on June 2, 2013, at 21:26:55
so anyways, someone told me to do something that I can't tell on babble, but this person, I smile with all the time, but now its just I have to hide all my feelings and wear a mask and under it is hate, a lot of hate. But hate usally should be eventually let go of, not just sit around and think about how much you hate someone, it drives me crazy.... but seriously I can't let it go....its like a seed that got planted inside after being violated, having to have an smile on my face with a slight hateful look trying to cover it up.
I don't know how to handle this, its not just this....its like all the danm I have to hide my feelings becase people like to press my buttons and do it for a game, and then I have to get an evil persona under a smile. I just hate it, I should be able to handle all this, and not hide every danm thing im thinking....no one understands either so I have to deal with this on my own.....
r
not a scholar but understand distress
Med:
Prozac 60mg
Lamictal 200mg
Zyprexa 20mg
Nuvigil 250mg
encourage you to avoid false lights of enlightment and belief systems
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