Posted by Trevpr on October 1, 2013, at 22:06:19
Okay so I'm at 13.75mg/day of Parnate. Doesn't sound like a lot, but ever since I started going down past 20mg I've felt increasingly crazy, no matter how slow I taper.
I went down like 2.5mg/week, but now things are really bad, so I took a week break from tapering. Then I went down 1.25mg this week, and it's like 5 days later and I'm a mess!!!!!
I feel like I can't do anything! I was sitting in ceramics class and after watching the pottery wheel spin the class started spinning, and I'm feeling like my awareness is faded. Anything that requires any stimulation brings me closer to feeling like I'm just going to lose my consciousness or something. Everything already feels sort of dreamlike.
Am I tapering too slow? Or maybe too fast? I hear people say they taper off of Parnate in 2 weeks. I WISH! I am aiming for 3 months just to get off this 13.75mg... I think the problem is that Parnate has some stimulatory effect, so after feeling weak from the MAOI effect leaving, the stimulation from taking the Parnate makes me feel awful (especially after "the crash.")
I'm afraid to taper faster though because I already feel on the edge of sanity... I went to a psych hospital but I immediately came back home because they deprived me of sleep, tried giving me more drugs like haldol, their equipment did not work, they were negligent, they lost some of my items, I felt more stressed out, my heart was racing and asked for help but nobody came (even though they said my nurse was coming, they lied), I was treated sort of like I was retarded or something, and the doctor was only around for cursory checks like an hour every other day! Not really worth it in my opinion...
I take the Parnate divided into 3 doses, so whatever 13.75mg divided by 3 is is what I take 3 times a day. Just going to class is a nightmare and I feel like I need to be in bed all the time otherwise I will feel my awareness slowly fade and I get a panic attack (making things much, much worse) and I have to focus solely on calming down.
I was given Xanax and Klonopin, and they are really helpful, but I don't wanna be taking them for like 3 months, and I try to be conservative with them because they can make me feel much more "out of it." It's like a downward spiral. Some days I feel close to hallucinating or something - and it always happens AFTER taking the Parnate pill. Like, I take a pill, and over the course of 45-60 minutes I begin to feel the "stimulation." It makes me feel all weird and irritable, so at this point I usually take a little xanax or klonopin to prevent a panic attack. Then comes the crash where everything starts feeling weird like I'm taking LSD or something. I get really frightened!
I'm seeing the psychiatrist tomorrow but I'm not sure he knows of anything else I can do... Drinking water and taking naps helps a bit through the rough patches but this is really difficult to do on a daily basis! Especially for 3 months! Maybe I should taper faster... But I don't wanna have a psychotic break or something @__@
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