Posted by poser938 on November 23, 2013, at 16:02:38
it has been 4 years now since Mirapex basically ruined me. i took it for what then seemed to be pretty significant anhedonia. it helped mildly for some weeks, then one day i took my dose and not much later me anhedonia became muchmore severe.
anyway, i could write a book about the past 4 years and everything ive tried. but what im experiencing is basically a shut down of my dopamine system. i feel no effects from any dopamine increasing meds or D antagonists.
ive tried many meds with brief help from Cyproheptadine. and ido believe im at the end of the road for any options currently available. im NOT doing ECT. i did rTMS with no benefit. deep TMS isnt available anywhere near me. id love to do magnetic seizure therapy, but its also not available.
but, what ive mostly been craving is to basically become a guinea pig for Optogenetics. if you havent heard about this, i recommend you look it up. its incredible. basically it is a way to control brain function with lights. it has only been used in animals so far but theyve done some awesome things with it.
i lookrd up a research center in Callifornia thats headed by a guy named Karl Deisseroth, who is mentioned in just about every online publication describing Optogenetics, and i intend on contacting him next week. or at least contacting his research center.
i hope my idea doesnt sound too far out. and i hope its worth a shot. its just my brain functioning is ruining me. im so disconnected from the world. feeling so broken and only capable of negative thoughts. what im experiencing is going to kill me. i just dont have the ability to keep trying much longer. and among this, my family im living with just tells me that i dont know what real problems are. but im going to try so hard to have Optogenetics tested on me.
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