Posted by Chris O on January 12, 2014, at 2:19:47
In reply to Reaping the rewards of proper psych meds..phew!!, posted by Jay_Original1 on January 7, 2014, at 8:09:58
Jay:
I can totally relate to what you say about Christmas being the worst holiday ever. Thanks to my mother, Christmas (and Thanksgiving) will forever be seared into my brain as the worst holidays ever. She used those holidays to shove down my throat every bit of her codependency and control issues and guilt and fear of my becoming a strong, independent man and "leaving her." Sadly, at 46, I am still struggling to come to terms with this toxic bonding, and what these holidays mean to me as a result of it. Mercifully, this year I stayed away, but I am always torn by terrible feelings of guilt when I don't go to see my poor, lonely mother, more so because I feel I still need her in so many ways. What a bummer Christmas is!
poster:Chris O
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